Rudi Rudenski ~ 01/06/19 ~ Sacred Matrix ~ Revolution Radio ~ Hosts Janet Kira Lessin & Dr. Sasha Alex Lessin

Rudi Rudenski ~ 01/06/19 ~ Sacred Matrix ~ Revolution Radio, Studio B ~ Hosts Janet Kira Lessin & Dr. Sasha Alex Lessin ~ Producer Thomas Becker ~ 8 PM Eastern, 7 Central, 6 Mountain, 5 Pacific, 3 Hawaii.

Rudi had a significant Near Death Experience (NDE) while on the a special assignment in the military. This NDE changed his understanding of how the world operates. He saw a spaceship square heaven. He is keenly aware of the watchers. He was abducted at least once with lost time. He saw the post apocalyptic world. There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning.”  Rudi says his spiritual practice is kindness. All else is brute survival.

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On this show we will learn more.  We discuss:

  • Near Death Experience (NDE) first 30 Minutes of the show
  • After NDE – Attempted spiritual escape
  • Captured by greys and some type of military
  • Meeting the Off-worlder who controls the planet.
  • Effects of NDE. Burning out lightbulb. cell phones. computers. cars(60+) Electronic distortion
  • Awareness of spiritual manipulation
  • Feedback from microphones and speakers
  • Changing typed sentences
  • Free Will is not free will but rather a series of if then else statements
  • Seeing top hat UFO in broad daylight with 2 other men
  • Increased awareness of other beings
  • Giant Shadow Being
  • Abduction by UFO 🛸
  • Lost time Further increasing awareness of Off Worlders
  • Communication with off worlders
  • Waking up to Off Worlders in Uniforms in my room using a 3D computer
  • Humans are here for the entertainment of the off-worlders
  • You create your next playground
  • Bigfoot Spirits in trees
  • Child seeing fairies Rainbows
  • 1111
  • The importance of having a war free predator free destination after this world

 Near Death Experience

On my way to a military school…I was involved in a car accident during a flash-flood. As my car began to roll over and over…I experienced an extraordinary Near Death Experience.

I had a life review…i saw my life flash before my eyes…I saw every event of my life from outside of my body…it was 3 dimensional…like a 3D movie of my life…as if I was an observer of each event…Different events had different levels of importance…

  • 1. Most important were moments when some person shared their joy in some natural setting with me…fishing with my grandfather…flying over a river….a sunset…
  • 2. Then relationships: The love of my mother…family… friends…it is funny but…work..sex…restroom breaks… eating…arguing..fussing…fighting…were just kind of fast forwarded…and not important.

Any activity that was not related to love…kindness…joy…was not important…AS if every so called sin was simply forgotten…

There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning.

Add every joyful event and every blessing in your life and take out the corruptible flesh…and this is what you get to take to the light…quite a wonderful video of your life actually….This is what you get to take with you…into the next life…all the joy and blessings you experienced in this life.

This was only the first part of my journey…I remember each part of this journey…as if it happened today…just now…

The rest of this journey was even more extraordinary….but I want to stop here for now….If you are interested in more of this journey…let me know…To sum it up…try to experience as much joy, love, and kindness in this life….because that is what you get that you can call “Yours” in the the next life.

I want you to know how this this going to The Light experience is not a scary thing…..I did feel a little disoriented at first though…There was darkness at first….then there was spinning whirling tunnel around me…Lots of dark purples… and blues..and greens….then way out…beyond the beyond…there was this light…As soon as I recognized the light…it felt like I had been lost and finally…now…I knew… I was going home….

It all started when my head went crashing through the side windows of my car…as my car rolled over and over… I had my life review…but then…as my body flew in and then out of my front windshield…the life review ended…..the universe started spinning……as if the flesh or material world began to spin off of my being…all kinds of darkness was shedding from me like layers of an onion…whirling off of me….

As I was rising away from my body…I entered a tunnel…When I first saw the light at the end of the tunnel…I recognized my first thought…The light is love…Wherever it was I was going to…I knew it was going to be good….When I emerged from the tunnel, I entered a place that was blistering white….Light so bright that all of the colors of the objects in this place…bled away…I could tell objects had colors…but I could only discern the color by adjusting my perception of it…imagine ten shades of white and then a highlight of green or gold.

As I reached the end of the tunnel….there was a being who met me…An orb of light…about the size of a person’s body from the bottom of their neck to bottom of their stomach…elevated off of the deck of a floor about the height of someone’s legs…. If this sounds far fetched…It didn’t seem that way when I was there.

This being gave me some instructions…It was interesting how the being spoke to me from the top center of where I imagine one’s sternum might be…in the orb…and I heard the message…not from my ears…but from the same centered place…

The message was to not look up or I would die…As we walked along…I did have the sensation of walking….I was looking down at the road….The road coloration was some type of translucent gold…I couldn’t see all the way through it …but I could see through a certain measure of thickness…let us say 9 inches or so.

As we were going down this road with my vision diverted down…we came to our destination…I noticed a huge double door…..hewn out of wood…with ornate carving and one ring on each side of the door…….I remember opening the door and I was in a stadium sized room….As I was looking down …I can not tell you how high the place was…but I can tell you it was about the length of football field wide….And there were a dozen or so rows of colossal Pillars.

The Pillars were wonderful….As I walked past one of them…I stopped and looked at one for a long moment….The Pillars were I imagine…about 10 to 12 feet wide…and they were embedded with every kind of jewel imaginable….They were beautiful sapphires, emeralds, diamonds…the colors of the jewels were beautiful….but again the light was so intense that I could only see the colors sparkling as an afterthought… The pillars were staggered two-50 yards apart…and then two about 75 yards apart all the way to a series of steps.

As I entered the room… I could hear the voices of millions of singers…the sounds of a million instruments….all playing their own strange beautiful song …but somehow…this most wonderful of sounds…this orchestra and choir….created a harmonious wonderful sound…The sound was thunderously loud…but it didn’t hurt my ears….in fact…I felt no pain whatsoever..This music surpasses any music I have ever imagined….It is second in beauty only to the glorious lovely light.

I then ended up in front of a hewn wooden courtroom bench…The bench was tall…I could not see the top of it because I was looking down….But it was at least 10-15 fee tall. At least it felt as if I was in a court-room.

This has exhausted me a bit. Telling this story is so personal….but I want you to know that the being I was about to speak with… I called this being “God”….I could also call this being Love….This being is The Light……The intensity of this light is so strong…but the light doesn’t blind you….

If you want to know more…I will tell you…I can tell you this…God is greater than any version of a deity we have ever imagined…on earth…the love of this being is bigger than all of the great religions..Christianity…Buddhism…or god’s Krishna…Jehovah..or anything…because the Love of this being is the love of all that there is….I imagine this being as God…but if u want to imagine this being as something else…go ahead….If you could sum up this being as one word though… I would call this being Love.

If you want more of this story…It is quite a revelation…What must have taken only moments on earth…seemed like it could have been quite a long period of time…while I was there…but there was no time there…Let me know if you want to know what this being said to me….

As I stood before this court bench, I sensed the being above me. I was looking down, because if I looked up, I would die in my body. I didn’t really understand that concept at the time though. I just figured this orb of light that was standing behind had my best interest at heart so I kept my eyes directed down. I understand now that if I looked up into the eyes of this glorious being, I would not have desired to return to my smashed and broken body. My body was in a dire and precarious condition. My neck was fractured as my convertible MG was rolling over and over in the material world. I believe I died by the time the tiny car I was driving had rolled on top of me for the third time.

This being I called “God” was above me in this majestic Supreme Court Room and brought my “Life Review” back to my attention. Although I did not look up, I sensed these other beings on either side of this being I called “God.” I also sensed two beings floating above the being I called “God.” “God” does not accurately depict who this being was. But now I know that there is a lot to learn even in heaven. This being was as you said, “Perfect Love.” I have begun calling this being “Yah” in the last several years. I intuited that I was supposed to respond to my life. I said,

“Thank you ‘God’ for my life.” … ” I had a wonderful life.”

In my life-review I called up memories of my mother and grandmother…I called up memories of playing with childhood friends…. I called up the memory of fishing with my grandfather….all of my life…all of the million ways I had been blessed…I saw hundreds of sunrises and sunsets. I felt the absolute blessing I had received through my life…. I distinctly remember the joy I felt while flying over a river in a single engine plane. I was just outside the cockpit of the airplane, looking down at the river winding below me. It was beautiful…I remembered flying into a cloud…This was a time when I just was having fun flying along a river and enjoying it for joy’s sake. I remembered every good thing…that had ever occurred in my life. I said to “God,” Thank you for flying.”

Then, what happened next, I was totally un-prepared for…”God” spoke to me, asked me in this voice that was neither male or female….with the most lovely words that have ever been spoken to me, ” Did you learn enough about love.” This was all that this being said to me but inside these words were a million sayings…a complete realignment of my whole concept of what was important. It was a staggering statement. This being told me things in these few words that I have taken 20 years to absorb and am still not even close to touching the true meaning. I get little glimpses of new knowledge as I go through my life though. I just see things differently now that I know how you are supposed to see other people. The saying of those words made me examine my life from a totally different way…through the eyes of love. I realized just how wonderful my life had been in a profound way. I saw me the way “God” saw me. I knew how much this being loved me. It was beyond comprehending. There is no comparison.

I didn’t know what to say. I know for certainty, there is an almost infinite amount things to learn in this life and even more beyond the life we are living now. I quietly said, ” Thank for my mother’s love…and all my friends…and my family” …and then I said, “but…I never had a wife or children.” I had judged myself…My meeting before this assembly of loving beings was over. In one moment I was out of the Court Room.

I was back on a road of translucent gold. I could look up now. I could see a beautiful garden with brilliantly beautiful flowers and perfectly manicured grass. There were groomed hedges along the walls on either side and perfect trees. There was nothing dead at all in this garden. Every thing was vibrant with life. The orchestra and choir were playing their marvelous symphony and song in the background. As I looked down the road, I saw a line white of orbs of light…moving off the edge of this place I called heaven. Heaven is not round. Heaven is like a big rectangular boxy spaceship. As I came close to the edge of heaven, I saw white orbs going down, like an almost infinite string of pearls. As I went over the edge, I felt myself emerged in pitch darkness.

My return trip was almost as extraordinary as my visit with this being I spoke with. If you want to know how my return trip went… I will try to tell you when I can get the energy. I can’t fully describe how loving this being was. Words are not enough…but I can assure you…that the judgment is not a bad thing…Our lives on earth and in heaven are all about learning. WE get to keep the blessings we had on earth through the Eyes of “Perfect Love.” This state of becoming a light filled being should be our goal if we are going to learn all of the lessons we can learn from this life. But you get help. There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning. While I am far from perfect, at least I know what perfection is. Sometimes I want to go back…every day actually…but i am here…we are here…I hope this was helpful………. : )

I don’t know why I walked off the edge of heaven. I just did. I was walking toward a huge line of white orbs as they just walked off the edge so I got in line and did the same thing. It was almost as if I had done it several times before and I just knew what to do. There is no fear and no darkness there. There are no tears. It is a joy to be there..in heaven…with this wonderful being… The Inexpressible Light of Love…

I looked into a pitch black thick darkness and stepped off the edge of this rectangular shaped heaven. Still there was no fear but everything around me was absolute darkness. I could see the orbs in front of me…They weaved down in an irregular pattern…appearing like a precarious ladder…going down… into complete darkness…
I didn’t know where I was going…and I did not seem concerned about the journey. This was not the tunnel I had come from… This place I called heaven was beyond time and space….long before there were stars and matter. There was not time where I came from…but where I was going to….from a far and distant vantage point… I witnessed time speeding forward from the beginning of the existence of a material earth…to its ultimate destruction……

The first physical objects I recognized were points of light that looked like faint lights in the distance. At this point I began to recognize the backs of my hands in front of me. It was quite a bit different than looking at my body…there was a distinct lightness to them…not transparent…but not solid either.

I looked behind me…to look at stars flying past me; behind me were a trail of other beings…but they still looked like orbs….dancing across the cosmos…like a crazy Chinese new year’s dragon….I looked forward again and planets went flying by.

It was an amazing trip in retrospect….but I was not in awe… I could conrtol my movements but I was falling at a blinding speed.

Then in front of me was a blue marble… Earth….IT WAS BEAUTIFUL …. Perfect … Uncontaminated .. Illuminated….Earth had become clean….and pure… Then….A huge explosion from the center of the Earth occurred….Earth was shattered into a billion pieces……I was observing the end of the Earth…..The fireball erupted from the center and the Earth began breaking into parts.

…The pieces of earth went flying past me on the edge of what I believe was the atmosphere…….(Kind of odd that I saw earth exploding outward because I had a certain sense that I was seeing the end of time…moving backwards…)….I have to stop here….The next part of my experience will take too much out of me to say right now….I want to let the experience speak for itself and I sense from my last statement that I am getting beyond my ability to say what occured….I will try again when I can.

But do not dread the future….our souls are indestructible…If the earth fell into the sun today…your soul could dance in the flames…(That saying was just given to me by Yah” : )

As I entered back into the atmosphere…below me I could see the Great Lakes…How my soul knew where it was going is still hidden from me. As I flew down to my body like Superman, I could see my arms in front of me. I could not see through so they must of had some kind of substance but I didn’t feel any weight of a body. I had a shell of a body surrounding my soul. As I went through the clouds rain began to hit my arms…but I could not not feel the raindrops hitting my arms although I could see them splashing off of me. I knew for sure that I was not in a physical body at this point but something in-between the orbs of light I met in heaven and my physical body which was well below me. As I was moving closer to my body I recognized the road I had been traveling down before
I left my body. Then off on the side of the road, I observed a lady pulled over on the side of the road and getting out of her car. I then recognized my little MGB which had landed on its four wheel after it had rolled three times.

I don’t know who that lady is…but she got out of her car on that day and saved my life. I hope her life is blessed because she blessed my life that day. The top of my convertible was ripped off and as I was getting closer, I saw my body still in the driver’s seat. I entered back in my body and their was darkness. The lady had sent a man to call for an ambulance. I was 45 miles from any town and the closest hospital was in Toledo Ohio. But..by some miracle there was a volunteer ambulance service close by and they arrive after only 5 minutes of calling 911. My car was still running! I had just had it tuned up before I left. It was a nice running little car.

The lady who I had seen pull over on the side of the road asked me if I was alright. I was thinking about how I was going to get a ticket for wrecking my car. I said, ” I’m alright but I think I need to go to a hospital.” I asked the lady if she would follow me. I tried to argue with her about how my car was just fine. I was in the military and didn’t want to get in trouble for wrecking my car. I was traveling to go to a special school in North Dakota and I was going to go visit a girl I like in Chicago. It was quite a detour…but I was only 21.

She said, ” I think you should just lay down.” She found a blanket and made me lay down on the ground and she covered me up with the blanket. At this point I began to feel freezing cold…Ice cold blood seemed to be freezing in my veins. I was in shock and I was dying again. The men from the Volunteer Ambulance service arrived and put a neck brace on me and and bound my body down to a stretcher. I shaking badly as they drove me to the hospital. I want to thank those guy. I never did. The took be to the ambulance and then I took a trip to Toledo Hospital.

This should have been a frightening time in my life. The pain was horrific….But I was rather calm through the whole ordeal. My neck vertebrae had jumped tracks and broken. Glass was imbedded in my chest and back…somehow my face ad managed to escape without scarring. I had apparently flown through my left and right window and forward through my front windshield as my car rolled over and over. In the emergency room they were trying to stabilize and they were putting tube in my nose down into throat. That hurt worse than my broken neck. they stabilized me and sent me upstairs. Those folks save my life. I wish I could tell them how much that meant to me. I never did say thank you.

Later they put me in traction. They drilled screws into my skull and put me in traction. In a circular bed..it was like a torture chamber. I don’t remember much. But the nurse called the nurse in San Antonio, where they took me and told the nurses I was flirting with the nurse and got all their phone number. I must not have been shy on morphine.

My mother called Jake Pickle to find out what had happened to me. She sensed that something was wrong. They sent an Army Jet to deliver me to San Antonio. The flight was excruciating. They put me back in traction in San Antonio. My vertebrae popped back in place after a few week. The nurses there were so nice to me. The nurses from Toledo sent me flowers. I was around the most loving caring people you could imagine. I felt confident that I would be okay but the dreary windowless ICU felt like a tomb. I never even called to thank those wonderful people who save my life and watched over me. Thank you.

I spent the next year in and out of a body cast and I went to Washington Walter Reed where they fused my vertebrae..C-4-5-6.

I don’t think I can say any more for right now. I will talk more about it later.

Near Death Experience

Rudi Rudenski

There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning.

Near Death Experience

On my way to a military school…I was involved in a car accident during a flash-flood. As my car began to roll over and over…I experienced an extraordinary Near Death Experience.

I had a life review…i saw my life flash before my eyes…I saw every event of my life from outside of my body…it was 3 dimensional…like a 3D movie of my life…as if I was an observer of each event…Different events had different levels of importance…

  • 1. Most important were moments when some person shared their joy in some natural setting with me…fishing with my grandfather…flying over a river….a sunset…
  • 2. Then relationships: The love of my mother…family… friends…it is funny but…work..sex…restroom breaks… eating…arguing..fussing…fighting…were just kind of fast forwarded…and not important.

Any activity that was not related to love…kindness…joy…was not important…AS if every so called sin was simply forgotten…

There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning.

Add every joyful event and every blessing in your life and take out the corruptible flesh…and this is what you get to take to the light…quite a wonderful video of your life actually….This is what you get to take with you…into the next life…all the joy and blessings you experienced in this life.

This was only the first part of my journey…I remember each part of this journey…as if it happened today…just now…

The rest of this journey was even more extraordinary….but I want to stop here for now….If you are interested in more of this journey…let me know…To sum it up…try to experience as much joy, love, and kindness in this life….because that is what you get that you can call “Yours” in the the next life.

I want you to know how this this going to The Light experience is not a scary thing…..I did feel a little disoriented at first though…There was darkness at first….then there was spinning whirling tunnel around me…Lots of dark purples… and blues..and greens….then way out…beyond the beyond…there was this light…As soon as I recognized the light…it felt like I had been lost and finally…now…I knew… I was going home….

It all started when my head went crashing through the side windows of my car…as my car rolled over and over… I had my life review…but then…as my body flew in and then out of my front windshield…the life review ended…..the universe started spinning……as if the flesh or material world began to spin off of my being…all kinds of darkness was shedding from me like layers of an onion…whirling off of me….

As I was rising away from my body…I entered a tunnel…When I first saw the light at the end of the tunnel…I recognized my first thought…The light is love…Wherever it was I was going to…I knew it was going to be good….When I emerged from the tunnel, I entered a place that was blistering white….Light so bright that all of the colors of the objects in this place…bled away…I could tell objects had colors…but I could only discern the color by adjusting my perception of it…imagine ten shades of white and then a highlight of green or gold.

As I reached the end of the tunnel….there was a being who met me…An orb of light…about the size of a person’s body from the bottom of their neck to bottom of their stomach…elevated off of the deck of a floor about the height of someone’s legs…. If this sounds far fetched…It didn’t seem that way when I was there.

This being gave me some instructions…It was interesting how the being spoke to me from the top center of where I imagine one’s sternum might be…in the orb…and I heard the message…not from my ears…but from the same centered place…

The message was to not look up or I would die…As we walked along…I did have the sensation of walking….I was looking down at the road….The road coloration was some type of translucent gold…I couldn’t see all the way through it …but I could see through a certain measure of thickness…let us say 9 inches or so.

As we were going down this road with my vision diverted down…we came to our destination…I noticed a huge double door…..hewn out of wood…with ornate carving and one ring on each side of the door…….I remember opening the door and I was in a stadium sized room….As I was looking down …I can not tell you how high the place was…but I can tell you it was about the length of football field wide….And there were a dozen or so rows of colossal Pillars.

The Pillars were wonderful….As I walked past one of them…I stopped and looked at one for a long moment….The Pillars were I imagine…about 10 to 12 feet wide…and they were embedded with every kind of jewel imaginable….They were beautiful sapphires, emeralds, diamonds…the colors of the jewels were beautiful….but again the light was so intense that I could only see the colors sparkling as an afterthought… The pillars were staggered two-50 yards apart…and then two about 75 yards apart all the way to a series of steps.

As I entered the room… I could hear the voices of millions of singers…the sounds of a million instruments….all playing their own strange beautiful song …but somehow…this most wonderful of sounds…this orchestra and choir….created a harmonious wonderful sound…The sound was thunderously loud…but it didn’t hurt my ears….in fact…I felt no pain whatsoever..This music surpasses any music I have ever imagined….It is second in beauty only to the glorious lovely light.

I then ended up in front of a hewn wooden courtroom bench…The bench was tall…I could not see the top of it because I was looking down….But it was at least 10-15 fee tall. At least it felt as if I was in a court-room.

This has exhausted me a bit. Telling this story is so personal….but I want you to know that the being I was about to speak with… I called this being “God”….I could also call this being Love….This being is The Light……The intensity of this light is so strong…but the light doesn’t blind you….

If you want to know more…I will tell you…I can tell you this…God is greater than any version of a deity we have ever imagined…on earth…the love of this being is bigger than all of the great religions..Christianity…Buddhism…or god’s Krishna…Jehovah..or anything…because the Love of this being is the love of all that there is….I imagine this being as God…but if u want to imagine this being as something else…go ahead….If you could sum up this being as one word though… I would call this being Love.

If you want more of this story…It is quite a revelation…What must have taken only moments on earth…seemed like it could have been quite a long period of time…while I was there…but there was no time there…Let me know if you want to know what this being said to me….

As I stood before this court bench, I sensed the being above me. I was looking down, because if I looked up, I would die in my body. I didn’t really understand that concept at the time though. I just figured this orb of light that was standing behind had my best interest at heart so I kept my eyes directed down. I understand now that if I looked up into the eyes of this glorious being, I would not have desired to return to my smashed and broken body. My body was in a dire and precarious condition. My neck was fractured as my convertible MG was rolling over and over in the material world. I believe I died by the time the tiny car I was driving had rolled on top of me for the third time.

This being I called “God” was above me in this majestic Supreme Court Room and brought my “Life Review” back to my attention. Although I did not look up, I sensed these other beings on either side of this being I called “God.” I also sensed two beings floating above the being I called “God.” “God” does not accurately depict who this being was. But now I know that there is a lot to learn even in heaven. This being was as you said, “Perfect Love.” I have begun calling this being “Yah” in the last several years. I intuited that I was supposed to respond to my life. I said,

“Thank you ‘God’ for my life.” … ” I had a wonderful life.”

In my life-review I called up memories of my mother and grandmother…I called up memories of playing with childhood friends…. I called up the memory of fishing with my grandfather….all of my life…all of the million ways I had been blessed…I saw hundreds of sunrises and sunsets. I felt the absolute blessing I had received through my life…. I distinctly remember the joy I felt while flying over a river in a single engine plane. I was just outside the cockpit of the airplane, looking down at the river winding below me. It was beautiful…I remembered flying into a cloud…This was a time when I just was having fun flying along a river and enjoying it for joy’s sake. I remembered every good thing…that had ever occurred in my life. I said to “God,” Thank you for flying.”

Then, what happened next, I was totally un-prepared for…”God” spoke to me, asked me in this voice that was neither male or female….with the most lovely words that have ever been spoken to me, ” Did you learn enough about love.” This was all that this being said to me but inside these words were a million sayings…a complete realignment of my whole concept of what was important. It was a staggering statement. This being told me things in these few words that I have taken 20 years to absorb and am still not even close to touching the true meaning. I get little glimpses of new knowledge as I go through my life though. I just see things differently now that I know how you are supposed to see other people. The saying of those words made me examine my life from a totally different way…through the eyes of love. I realized just how wonderful my life had been in a profound way. I saw me the way “God” saw me. I knew how much this being loved me. It was beyond comprehending. There is no comparison.

I didn’t know what to say. I know for certainty, there is an almost infinite amount things to learn in this life and even more beyond the life we are living now. I quietly said, ” Thank for my mother’s love…and all my friends…and my family” …and then I said, “but…I never had a wife or children.” I had judged myself…My meeting before this assembly of loving beings was over. In one moment I was out of the Court Room.

I was back on a road of translucent gold. I could look up now. I could see a beautiful garden with brilliantly beautiful flowers and perfectly manicured grass. There were groomed hedges along the walls on either side and perfect trees. There was nothing dead at all in this garden. Every thing was vibrant with life. The orchestra and choir were playing their marvelous symphony and song in the background. As I looked down the road, I saw a line white of orbs of light…moving off the edge of this place I called heaven. Heaven is not round. Heaven is like a big rectangular boxy spaceship. As I came close to the edge of heaven, I saw white orbs going down, like an almost infinite string of pearls. As I went over the edge, I felt myself emerged in pitch darkness.

My return trip was almost as extraordinary as my visit with this being I spoke with. If you want to know how my return trip went… I will try to tell you when I can get the energy. I can’t fully describe how loving this being was. Words are not enough…but I can assure you…that the judgment is not a bad thing…Our lives on earth and in heaven are all about learning. WE get to keep the blessings we had on earth through the Eyes of “Perfect Love.” This state of becoming a light filled being should be our goal if we are going to learn all of the lessons we can learn from this life. But you get help. There are lots of spiritual beings out there just waiting to help you with your learning. While I am far from perfect, at least I know what perfection is. Sometimes I want to go back…every day actually…but i am here…we are here…I hope this was helpful………. : )

I don’t know why I walked off the edge of heaven. I just did. I was walking toward a huge line of white orbs as they just walked off the edge so I got in line and did the same thing. It was almost as if I had done it several times before and I just knew what to do. There is no fear and no darkness there. There are no tears. It is a joy to be there..in heaven…with this wonderful being… The Inexpressible Light of Love…

I looked into a pitch black thick darkness and stepped off the edge of this rectangular shaped heaven. Still there was no fear but everything around me was absolute darkness. I could see the orbs in front of me…They weaved down in an irregular pattern…appearing like a precarious ladder…going down… into complete darkness…
I didn’t know where I was going…and I did not seem concerned about the journey. This was not the tunnel I had come from… This place I called heaven was beyond time and space….long before there were stars and matter. There was not time where I came from…but where I was going to….from a far and distant vantage point… I witnessed time speeding forward from the beginning of the existence of a material earth…to its ultimate destruction……

The first physical objects I recognized were points of light that looked like faint lights in the distance. At this point I began to recognize the backs of my hands in front of me. It was quite a bit different than looking at my body…there was a distinct lightness to them…not transparent…but not solid either.

I looked behind me…to look at stars flying past me; behind me were a trail of other beings…but they still looked like orbs….dancing across the cosmos…like a crazy Chinese new year’s dragon….I looked forward again and planets went flying by.

It was an amazing trip in retrospect….but I was not in awe… I could control my movements but I was falling at a blinding speed.

Then in front of me was a blue marble… Earth….IT WAS BEAUTIFUL …. Perfect … Uncontaminated .. Illuminated….Earth had become clean….and pure… Then….A huge explosion from the center of the Earth occurred….Earth was shattered into a billion pieces……I was observing the end of the Earth…..The fireball erupted from the center and the Earth began breaking into parts.

…The pieces of earth went flying past me on the edge of what I believe was the atmosphere…….(Kind of odd that I saw earth exploding outward because I had a certain sense that I was seeing the end of time…moving backwards…)….I have to stop here….The next part of my experience will take too much out of me to say right now….I want to let the experience speak for itself and I sense from my last statement that I am getting beyond my ability to say what occurred….I will try again when I can.

But do not dread the future….our souls are indestructible…If the earth fell into the sun today…your soul could dance in the flames…(That saying was just given to me by Yah” : )

As I entered back into the atmosphere…below me I could see the Great Lakes…How my soul knew where it was going is still hidden from me. As I flew down to my body like Superman, I could see my arms in front of me. I could not see through so they must of had some kind of substance but I didn’t feel any weight of a body. I had a shell of a body surrounding my soul. As I went through the clouds rain began to hit my arms…but I could not not feel the raindrops hitting my arms although I could see them splashing off of me. I knew for sure that I was not in a physical body at this point but something in-between the orbs of light I met in heaven and my physical body which was well below me. As I was moving closer to my body I recognized the road I had been traveling down before
I left my body. Then off on the side of the road, I observed a lady pulled over on the side of the road and getting out of her car. I then recognized my little MGB which had landed on its four wheel after it had rolled three times.

I don’t know who that lady is…but she got out of her car on that day and saved my life. I hope her life is blessed because she blessed my life that day. The top of my convertible was ripped off and as I was getting closer, I saw my body still in the driver’s seat. I entered back in my body and their was darkness. The lady had sent a man to call for an ambulance. I was 45 miles from any town and the closest hospital was in Toledo Ohio. But..by some miracle there was a volunteer ambulance service close by and they arrive after only 5 minutes of calling 911. My car was still running! I had just had it tuned up before I left. It was a nice running little car.

The lady who I had seen pull over on the side of the road asked me if I was alright. I was thinking about how I was going to get a ticket for wrecking my car. I said, ” I’m alright but I think I need to go to a hospital.” I asked the lady if she would follow me. I tried to argue with her about how my car was just fine. I was in the military and didn’t want to get in trouble for wrecking my car. I was traveling to go to a special school in North Dakota and I was going to go visit a girl I like in Chicago. It was quite a detour…but I was only 21.

She said, ” I think you should just lay down.” She found a blanket and made me lay down on the ground and she covered me up with the blanket. At this point I began to feel freezing cold…Ice cold blood seemed to be freezing in my veins. I was in shock and I was dying again. The men from the Volunteer Ambulance service arrived and put a neck brace on me and and bound my body down to a stretcher. I was shaking badly as they drove me to the hospital. I want to thank those guy. I never did. The took me to the ambulance and then I took a trip to Toledo Hospital.

This should have been a frightening time in my life. The pain was horrific….But I was rather calm through the whole ordeal. My neck vertebrae had jumped tracks and broken. Glass was embedded in my chest and back…somehow my face had managed to escape without scarring. I had apparently flown through my left and right window and forward through my front windshield as my car rolled over and over. In the emergency room they were trying to stabilize me and they were putting tube in my nose down into throat. That hurt worse than my broken neck. they stabilized me and sent me upstairs. Those folks save my life. I wish I could tell them how much that meant to me. I never did say thank you.

Later they put me in traction. They drilled screws into my skull and put me in traction. In a circular bed..it was like a torture chamber. I don’t remember much. But the nurse called the nurse in San Antonio, where they took me and told the nurses I was flirting with the nurse and got all their phone number. I must not have been shy on morphine.

My mother called Jake Pickle to find out what had happened to me. She sensed that something was wrong. They sent an Army Jet to deliver me to San Antonio. The flight was excruciating. They put me back in traction in San Antonio. My vertebrae popped back in place after a few week. The nurses there were so nice to me. The nurses from Toledo sent me flowers. I was around the most loving caring people you could imagine. I felt confident that I would be okay but the dreary windowless ICU felt like a tomb. I never even called to thank those wonderful people who save my life and watched over me. Thank you.

I spent the next year in and out of a body cast and I went to Washington Walter Reed where they fused my vertebrae..C-4-5-6.

I don’t think I can say any more for right now. I will talk more about it later.

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On the way to a secret military base in 1982, Rudi Rudenski died in a car accident:       

 As far as how I changed:

Prior to my NDE, I believed G-d hated people who were Gay, Atheists, Communists, Muslims, Catholics and I even believed that most human beings would burn in hell because they did not believe

in my religion…

My NDE changed that about me. I learned that The Light I met in heaven loved the very people I thought G-d hated like crazy…

When I returned to my body and re-entered the military, I could no longer hate the enemies of my country enough to kill them or help others do so… so I left the army… I was disgusted by religious intolerance after my NDE and could not step foot in a religious building for years as the teachers of my brand of religion taught a hateful story of a villain deity that far and away not recognizable in context to the being of Light I met in my NDE.

In my NDE, I met a being much like Jesus and I met a being I called G-d but The Light didn’t wear that name well. Today, I have a personal name for G-d and I call it Y-h(pronounced Yaw) which to me is like a set of verbs and verbish words disguised as adjectives are all added together and becomes a noun like being also called The Light by many who have NDE’s:  Kindness; Compassion, Gentleness, Beauty, Dignity,  and deep down belly laughter, all added together  is often assumed to be a noun called Love. I have also called this being the sum of all love…

Today, I teach blind and visually impaired adults and children to live independently and help them return to work. I consider serving others with laughter and loving kindness to be the prime directive. Those moments when we love others and when we are loved by others are timeless pieces of The Light… Even when we die… those moments go on and on… All of our less than love dies and is forgotten but our kindnesses are a part of timelessness so we should do our best to be loving kind and not sweat the small stuff. I understood how The Light loved a bully like me and if The Light could love someone who thought G-d hated everyone not like me then think how much The Light could love someone who made their life about love.

Today, I cobble bits and pieces from my former religion into a theology of Loving Kindness… and I chose a different career from being a soldier who constantly contemplated murdering people The Light loves. My career has changed over the years into something else:

I taught English in Mexico and emphasized love; I worked with thousands of at-risk children teaching alternative energy and environmental education; I worked with deaf children and blind children to teach them science and life skills; I worked with blind adults to teach them how use power-tools for gaining confidence and then they made beautiful furniture; I taught others art using stained glass embedded in wood; I now teach blind children and adults independent living skills such as cooking, cleaning, braille, basic cane use, touch typing and how to use computers with speech. I teach because I feel I can make a difference in people’s lives. Many of the human beings I work with are hopeless and in despair but through the process of building their confidence, some will go to college or learn a skill. Many go to work with their new skills and participate in life fully.

 My life is a far cry from the days when my heart was filled with murder. Love takes on many forms. If you take anything from reading or hearing me talk about my NDE, I hope it is that our love is timeless so be timeless. Do as little harm as possible but don’t beat yourself up when you fail to live up to the Highest Ideal of love. Love is really all that survives time so love.

Love & Dances,

Rudi

A.C .                                           Australia

Feb 26 2005

After being hit head on by a 4WD vehicle and my little car completed: with loud bangs and crash sounds and smashing glass; I feared the worst; …I asked for protection.

The next thing I knew I was in the precense of something wonderful. It felt warm, comforting. I could feel layers of energy deep and wide, yet strongly calm.

I remember saying I couldn�t die because my daugther was too young to loose her mother. Then I became fully aware of what surrounded me. Colours were soft, clear and jet if felt more like light soft and strong that dominated. It was like nothing I had ever experienced. Instinctively I knew I was somewhere amazing and very special.

I was told I was not staying: However I needed to be shown how much I was loved….then I saw my life (as they say) pass before me: And it the most striking thing was NO JUDGEMENT!!!

All my life I lived with harsh judgements and critisisms and yet in that place there was none at all. Noticeably ABSENT!

 I was told I was loved and valued and thanked for the sacrifices and efforts made with a range of issues in my life. I was also told of somethings yet to happen as if to prepare me. And I was given deep insights into the hearts of people close to me. There was no pain at all, no fear, nothing remotely negative of concerning…. I felt filled with support, comfort, calm and unconditional love….none of which I had known before.

Too soon it seemed I was back and the pain crippling � I was so captivated by this experience I resolved to do better, to live better.

There were many times in my long slow rehabilitation when I seriously doubted its authenticity until something was said or would happen as I was TOLD it would .As if spirit known and reepted my doubts and analytical nature. � For its rightness and truthfulness – so I would not doubt but love instead.

This is a true and accurate account to the best of my knowledge.

D.S. Weiler

I had a million thoughts as I went. Having time for so many thoughts made it seem like it should have been a longer time.                                That I had thoughts confused me. I tried to define what was happening to me. “I”, an aware self, was still “me” and, apparently alive. I could not see myself. I could not raise my hand to look at it, but I was something – I still felt like “myself”. I was still thinking and feeling – but not in a body, not with a physical brain. I was moving without legs. At least, I couldn’t see any part of myself. I assumed I had no legs, no hands, no arms, no feet or anything you would normally look at to see if it was there. I felt surprise and wonder. I knew the meaning of those concepts, too. How can I know anything? I’m dead!

I floated “higher” or further. I lack a better word for the sensation or the direction. Still, I knew movement was happening to me. I was no longer in my body. I knew I was not on this planet. I knew that “I” was not dead, not the way we mean the word. Dead means dead; No power, no lights on, party’s over, no thinking. no feeling. I was dead but I was not un-alive, not unaware. I knew I lived. I didn’t know why or how. I couldn’t figure it out.

For one moment I was so sad my children and my mother would be grieved by my death. I regretted the pain my death would cause my family. Then something changed in me. That sad thought faded away and I was overcome by a deeply peaceful joy. It was like I let all the cares and concerns that are so much a part of us leave with my body.

As this feeling passed through me I saw, off to my right, a golden glow, a light in the darkness, like a city’s lights on the night sky. It lit the way for me. It was not dark anymore. The light was shining, just over there from me. I say “I saw” but I had no eyes. It’s another confusion with words and concepts I can’t say well here. But I could see the golden light. It was like a candle behind a curtain. Shaded, but enhanced by the darkness to a brighter brightness.

What I learned next amazed me. I discovered that the glowing, golden globe of light was alive. It was a “self”. It was a living being. We were the same! We were both living beings. This felt like a huge revelation; “Hey, it’s another soul!” It was huge, loving and powerful, strong and gentle all at the same time. I felt small and confused but I knew it was alive. It knew “self and other” the same way I did still. I wasn’t dead, it wasn’t dead, but it didn’t look like a human. It just felt like a human to me. I was aware of its “self-ness”. It was aware of my “aliveness”. It was strange to look at something I thought of as so different from me and find out it was not different. I couldn’t say it was “human” and had been living on “earth”, but it was another living, aware self. We were alike!

That other self was “human” or “like me” in feeling but powerful beyond description. I was fascinated by it. I felt the power the Being appeared to generate and that was sent out from it. It was like standing in the sunlight but, instead of sunshine, LOVE warmed you through to your center. It was like nothing and no one I have ever seen or met but I knew it only loved.. I could feel Love radiating off that Being and flowing into and through everything around it. It knew me in all I was, in all my life, in all my truth. I could not hide anything from it. I had no desire to hide anything. I felt no fear or shame that it “saw” all of me.

That being knew all of everything I ever was and loved me. Not just loved me but every thing that defined me as my self, unique from any other bit of creation, was wonderful to it. It loved the way I was made, it loved that we were meeting, it loved me with all the love it had in it and I knew that I was precious to it and treasured by it. I was perfectly what I was supposed to be and it loved me just that way.

If I had been a diamond I was flawless, perfectly cut and beautiful beyond needing any other change. I could not be more loved by it if I changed even one thing in myself. I was perfect – as I was made. I feel it may have thought, “as I made you. I did you perfectly!” That Being loved me so deeply that it would never hurt me. It only wanted my complete, loving self to be all the me I am. I didn’t have to be anything but my real self. Truth lies there. Unconditional love sees only the beauty of the truth in each living spirit.

We began to communicate when I understood it was “speaking” to me. I “heard” it address me. Then I knew it could “hear” what I wanted to share with it. It was not with spoken words but more like with complete thoughts with no possibility of misunderstanding. It was a true communication of perfect understanding between two spirits. I would “ask” then would “know”.

I did not need to change one thing to be perfect. I was perfect to it. I knew it felt a true joy in being with me. I felt like it was just bursting with happiness because I was there. It was beyond glad to see me, it loved me. It thought I was just perfectly made and was thrilled that we were together. I repeat this because it amazed me.

I was seeing myself out of it’s own vision. It saw me as a beautiful, perfect, shining, living being, full of love and peace, filled with joy. I saw myself, but I saw me as it did, a being of golden light and love. I loved being me for the first time I could remember.

I saw the truth of what I was. I was filled with the joy in the knowledge that I was a loving self and I loved the being who showed me the love in my self. It showed me we are alike, we are both living, we are both of Love and you are beautiful and made of love, as am I.I knew all of me the way that being knew me and I saw that each experience and person here was a part of me still. Each each part of my life was needed to make me completely what I was; Perfect in it’s eyes. I would appear to be perfect again today if I stood there, even though I have changed from the woman I was then.

That is the meaning of the grace. You are loved as you are – not as you wish to be, not as you should have been, not as someone else says you have to be – but for exactly what you are. The truth of what you are is only good. There is no shame or guilt because you understand what life here and the love in you experienced is just that – being alive as a human. There is no way to feel ashamed for you are exactly what you were created to be. Your life and you are showed to so you understand you did everything from love. There is nothing to regret or be sorry for any more when you see that we are all moved by love and trying to express it or move by the percieved lack of love and trying to share it.

As I saw myself from the eyes of that being, I knew I was good. I was goodness. I was not just, “okay”. I was perfect and I was loving and I was good. I saw, in my own judgement, that I was love, loving – good. To see my self as good again, like I knew I was when I was a child – oh, my heart, how I wish to keep that feeling with me here. How I wish I could give that feeling to you..                                                                        D.S. Weiler

Lexy                                                    Germany

TRANSLATION FROM THE GERMAN ORIGINAL:

NDE with 6 years old:

I had to undergo a tonsillitis operation. There was no way of getting around that operation due to constant severe infections because of my tonsillities. I was getting weaker and sicker with fever infections more and more often.

My last memory before the operation was me struggling against the gas mask,  feeling slightly out of breath and the smell of ether. The doctor and my mother were with me. After that my sense of time and direction went missing.

When my conscious came back I noticed myself flying though a square, yellow-blue shining tunnel. My awareness of self was  all of a sudden very clear and strong, I remember it as if it was yesterday: THIS was me, so beautiful, shining and alive! I flew effortless and was drawn without feeling any resistance to it.

In the beginning the tunnel started glowing gently, but then it became more and more intense and brighter.  I had the feeling of depth and dimension. My speed towards the light at the end of the tunnel increased, also the intensity of the colours deepened and in addition I was now  full of and expectant joy. A sense of warmth went through and through me.

With the increasing speed I saw blue and yellow shining lines fly past with great speed. Intensity  of light and my clear consciousness grew with increase of speed until reaching a complete high: �Now it is all going to happen!� � but then I saw glowing spitting sparks and I bumped into some sort of net of electricity, which stopped my acceleration.

Unexpectedly interrupted from my joyful expectation I awoke with a shock , feeling numb, dizzy and disorientated in the operating room. I was back and the doctor showed great relief as it had been difficult reaching me and to wake me up he had to shake me violently. For a long time all my attention was inwards  and I remained in this dreamy sense of lightness. My interest for every day things went missing and for some years I stayed withdrawn and locked into a dream world build out of my special experience.

I remained for years between “here and there” in day dreams and with low interest for this life, I didn’t really love this life on earth for many years. But later the joy came back.

My experience was life changing and my NDE caused some abilities. Precognition, out of body experiences,  going into the other world to my grandfather and seeing  deceased relatives. But I didn’t share this very often.  I enjoy the abilities and sense them as very life-enhancing.


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